Me and my Shadow
I refer to it as my shadow, why? Well because you can’t see it but once you know it’s there you have constant reminders of its presence. So, what is this shadow? It took me about two years to find out but when I did it was like finding the missing piece of the puzzle.
I’ve always been physically very fit and well, my downside was my emotional well-being. My story began about three years ago. I started to get like a buzzing sensation in my ear, I had suffered with tinnitus for many years, it wasn’t this. It was something different? I ignored it for a few months but when it started to feel like someone was drilling in the side of my head, I thought I had better get it checked out.
This was the start of a very long and painful journey. I was referred by my GP to the ENT department. I had a hearing test and was told that I have a severe case of tinnitus. I was sent home and told there’s not much they can do.
As the months went on the drilling got worse, it started to feel some days like someone had stuck a metal rod into the top of my head. So, I went back to the GP and she diagnosed it as a migraine? A Migraine? I had never even suffered a headache and suddenly I had migraines? She told me it’s probably due to my age and could be early menopausal symptoms. So, off I went again and decided to look into natural ways to support my ‘menopausal’ symptoms.
I also looked into my diet and took out any migraine causing foods such as chocolate, coffee and cheese. After a couple of months these symptoms were getting worse. As an intuitive healer I just knew there something more to it. I went to see numerous other healers, I had Reiki, Acupuncture, Shamanic Healing, Theta Healing, you name it I tried it! Nothing was helping and I was getting worse.
As the months went on, I started to experience pain in localised areas of my body. My hip, my middle back, it was like someone stabbing me. Some days it was all too much and I had to just give up and go to bed. Then my shoulder pain started. This was gradually getting worse and my arm some days just wouldn’t move. Then one day whilst on holiday we went out for a meal and we were sitting in a restaurant and I had one of the worst anxiety attacks that I had ever had. This was the start of the anxiety phase.
So, back I went to the GP, who referred me for a CT and MRI scan. There was no surprise when both came back clear. The Dr confirmed there’s nothing wrong with me, but, as I had a history of anxiety and depression, she would offer me some anti-depressants! I was made to feel this was all in my mind! I can’t even begin to tell you how this made me feel. I had nowhere else to turn. I had all the tests available, I had seen several doctors, what now?
A final visit to the GP was made where the doctor was pleased to present me with life time membership of the Fibromyalgia club! Yay, how pleased was I that I finally had an answer, BUT…… my intuition was telling me something different. My symptoms weren’t anything like those of Fibromyalgia sufferers. I guess the GP had nowhere else to go with me either.
A few weeks later I was having a chat with a friend and she recommended I go and see a Kinesiologist. I decided I had nothing to lose. Off I went with that little chink of hope in my pocket. She started testing me for various conditions and at one point her face changed. She had that look of “Ah, I think I know what this is”! She asked me the question, “Do you have any amalgam fillings in your mouth?” “Yes”………. I replied sheepishly. “Well, you are testing positive for Mercury Poisoning”.
It was like I had been hit in the face with a baseball bat! This was it, the piece of the puzzle had been found. Whilst I had no idea what that meant, I absolutely knew this was it. I was filled with so many emotions, I was so happy that I didn’t have a life-threatening illness, I was angry that it had taken so long to work it out, I was thrilled that I had an answer. At last I can deal with this and get better.
Well, it turns out it’s not so easy to deal with after all. Mercury had been vaporising from my fillings into my blood stream for goodness knows how long. It appears that going to a dentist to get them drilled out is the worst thing you can do, they don’t protect you from more mercury entering your blood stream. It also appeared that a supplement I had been taking contained an ingredient called Alpha Lipoic Acid, is a very strong chelator. It had been pulling the mercury out of my teeth and into my blood stream.
The mercury had also caused me to become Thiol intolerant, thiols are found in many foods and when you eat them they cause the mercury to redistribute around your body. Little did I know that all those healthy greens such as spinach, kale, broccoli and cabbage were actually causing my pain. My diet is now very limited and my treats I used to enjoy such as tea, coffee, chocolate are completely out of bounds. Should I eat a tiny amount of garlic, onion or coriander (the main offenders) then my arm becomes completely stuck for a day or so and the pain in my head leads me to go to bed. I don’t eat out now unless I have to, trying to order things from the menu is a real challenge. Most times I end up sending the meal back as they will have added something onto the plate that I can’t eat. It’s not worth taking the risk.
So, what next? Well I found an organic dentist that removes mercury using the IOAMT Safe Procedures. The left side of my mouth is now amalgam free. I’d would have liked to think that was the end of it all but no………
After all the fillings are removed then I will start a 2-3 years detox. I have done much research on various heavy metal detox’ and I keep being drawn back to the Andy Cutler Mercury Detox. There’s around 70,000 people in the Facebook group, all going through the same thing. Some people completely confined to their bed as it took them even longer to find the missing piece of their puzzle. Many of them diagnosed with all sorts of diseases but have since found their shadow and are also on the long road to recovery.
They say every cloud has a silver lining, my shadow has a silver lining too! Along the way I have met some wonderful people who have given me so much support.
I have also discovered an amazing healing modality which has helped me with the emotional stress of this illness. It’s helped me so much that I undertook training to become a practitioner and I’m now helping many others with their emotional and physical imbalances. I am also now helping others identify the cause of their mystery illness when conventional tests have not been successful.
If you have a mystery illness and can’t get to the bottom of it then maybe this is your missing piece? By the way, you don’t have to have silver amalgams in your mouth to have mercury toxicity. I know people who have it following being vaccinated, some people who have eaten large amounts of fish or have been exposed to mercury from a broken light bulb.
The main advice I have is if you find out you have mercury toxicity is to not go to a regular dental surgery to get the fillings removed. Find a dentist that is IOAMT registered to get them removed safely. If you have amalgams (these are the silver coloured fillings), check your supplements for Alpha Lipoic Acid, this will be pulling mercury out of your fillings into your blood stream. Do a thiol exclusion test, you can find this on google. You will quickly find out if you’re thiol intolerant and once you take these foods out of our diet you will find your pain reduces. Do not eat coriander leaf, this moves mercury around your body then dumps it causing your body to seize up.
I do hope this information reaches far and wide and if your suffering with pain and you don’t know what’s causing it, it might be worth checking to see if you have a shadow.
Love and Blessings